1 year later

Not like anyone looks at this anyways, I thought I'd procrastinate a little more.

Its been a year since I last wrote in this - and I feel that the 12 months that have passed have possibly been the most eventful 12 months of my life. My crazymoroccan lives in New fucking York, and I'm almost done with my first year of university. It's actually immense how time passes so fast!

I've met so many new people in this year - some really amazing people, and some really not so amazing people. I've done things I never imagined myself doing, and just experienced so many new things. And I'm so grateful for having this experience!

I can't wait to see my crazymoroccan in New York and make even more memories! 2013 started off well, and hopefully will end well :)

This is just a pointless post for our pointless blog. But I just wanted to post it.. Because why not. So whoever reads this - (possibly only you, Crazymoroccan).. I hope you enjoyed my pointless post. Now go and live life, and study hard and stay in school and become successful and what-not.

Peace out x

It's not always angry rants

So I haven't written on this blog for a really long time. I forgot we even had one, its one of those spur of the moment things, which at first is new and exciting and you do it all the time, and then one day you just stop.
But I thought I should blog today, to say life's pretty good at the moment. Its been 6 months since my angry rants and emotional breakdowns about exams and stuff, so now I'm done and awaiting my results. Its not fair that few numbers can decide your entire future for you, but oh well.. That's how the world works.

I said life's good right? Well it is. I'm in the same country with my crazymoroccan, and purple puppy now feels less lonely! It's good to be home, it's good because when I'm here I can forget all the bad stuff that happens.. (to me, not to the world, that you can never forget). And bad stuff isn't really that bad, its just the feeling bad which sucks. Feeling sorry for yourself is the worst feeling ever. I like being happy. It's the best emotion there is. And right now, I'm very happy.

I dont know who reads this blog. Possibly nobody, but it feels good writing it and thinking maybe some random girl in russia looking for a purple purse will come across it.

NotSoConfusedGirl.

I'm optimistic too. and I have a feeling you'll do it, and well.

Letting you be I think is the best thing anyone could do to you, because you're amazing just the way you are.



Fuck i just used bruno mars lyrics. aergh

Maybe this is just an excuse for my laziness.

But FFS stop breathing down my neck about grades, and school. I am optimistic about the future, regardless of how I do in school. Just let me do it my way? Thats all I want, I want to do it my way. So stop screaming at me from thousands of miles away on a bad phone connection about something I know.

Just let me be. The way I want to be.

Optimism never killed anyone. And I'm possibly the most optimistic person I know.

Tonight, I masturbate to this.

no more angry bullshit.

Soo turns out CrazyMoroccan has a couple of big things coming up in her life. A big move. To a new country. Looking forward to it. But, CrazyMoroccan has to get busy finding universities to transfer to, the best of course, and making her file look a bit prettier, volunteer work, writing contests and artsy stuff. so by the end of exam week, let's say friday, she'll be getting busy with all that. CrazyMoroccan feels like she's been given a chance to make something of her life, and just because she still lives in a third world country doesn't mean she has to have a third world application. Wow that was so diplomatically incorrect. But she's too lazy to formulate a new sentence. Now, CrazyMoroccan also has to work on her academic record, as in she has to sit for the SATs,  and get involved in university life; forums, clubs and stuff like that. CrazyMoroccan always makes this sort of plan, but now that she posted it here, she feels like it is real, and she'll have more chances of accomplishing it than is she just kept it to herself. Disappointing herself has become a weekly thing in her life, blames it all on her laziness. But now that its all out on the world wide cobweb, she can't afford to disappoint a bunch of computers.
Is it okay to hash-tag after a blog post that isn't a tweet? Yes, yes it is. #DesperateForMotivation.


and I have no idea why I wrote this in third person...

more and more anger this world couldn't be more disappointing. how could a university professor not post your notes, three fucking days before the exam. how could this goddamn bitch be so fucking stupid and irritating that she'd forget or just ignore the fact that it is her fucking responsibility to send us the fucking notes. im already at a A- and to get that i still have to score full marks on the exam and a couple assignments i didnt get back. its called getting a GPA back up so I can transfer to a good university and make something out of myself and avoid being like the rest of alll the fucking pricks and dicks in this world. jesus how could people be so goddamn stupid. and who ever the fuck was the plumber that built this house is a fucking failure. because, the on bathroom, in a huge ass house with hold on let me count
TEN fucking bath rooms! ten of them! 8 with actualy showers/bathtubs, have only one shower that works. I fucking hate this place everyday there has to be something that makes me hate it even more. i just have so much hate in me. find me a shooting range!!