I'm optimistic too. and I have a feeling you'll do it, and well.
Letting you be I think is the best thing anyone could do to you, because you're amazing just the way you are.
Fuck i just used bruno mars lyrics. aergh
Thursday, 8 December 2011
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Maybe this is just an excuse for my laziness.
But FFS stop breathing down my neck about grades, and school. I am optimistic about the future, regardless of how I do in school. Just let me do it my way? Thats all I want, I want to do it my way. So stop screaming at me from thousands of miles away on a bad phone connection about something I know.
Just let me be. The way I want to be.
Optimism never killed anyone. And I'm possibly the most optimistic person I know.
But FFS stop breathing down my neck about grades, and school. I am optimistic about the future, regardless of how I do in school. Just let me do it my way? Thats all I want, I want to do it my way. So stop screaming at me from thousands of miles away on a bad phone connection about something I know.
Just let me be. The way I want to be.
Optimism never killed anyone. And I'm possibly the most optimistic person I know.
Monday, 5 December 2011
no more angry bullshit.
Soo turns out CrazyMoroccan has a couple of big things coming up in her life. A big move. To a new country. Looking forward to it. But, CrazyMoroccan has to get busy finding universities to transfer to, the best of course, and making her file look a bit prettier, volunteer work, writing contests and artsy stuff. so by the end of exam week, let's say friday, she'll be getting busy with all that. CrazyMoroccan feels like she's been given a chance to make something of her life, and just because she still lives in a third world country doesn't mean she has to have a third world application. Wow that was so diplomatically incorrect. But she's too lazy to formulate a new sentence. Now, CrazyMoroccan also has to work on her academic record, as in she has to sit for the SATs, and get involved in university life; forums, clubs and stuff like that. CrazyMoroccan always makes this sort of plan, but now that she posted it here, she feels like it is real, and she'll have more chances of accomplishing it than is she just kept it to herself. Disappointing herself has become a weekly thing in her life, blames it all on her laziness. But now that its all out on the world wide cobweb, she can't afford to disappoint a bunch of computers.
Is it okay to hash-tag after a blog post that isn't a tweet? Yes, yes it is. #DesperateForMotivation.
and I have no idea why I wrote this in third person...
Is it okay to hash-tag after a blog post that isn't a tweet? Yes, yes it is. #DesperateForMotivation.
and I have no idea why I wrote this in third person...
Thursday, 1 December 2011
more and more anger this world couldn't be more disappointing. how could a university professor not post your notes, three fucking days before the exam. how could this goddamn bitch be so fucking stupid and irritating that she'd forget or just ignore the fact that it is her fucking responsibility to send us the fucking notes. im already at a A- and to get that i still have to score full marks on the exam and a couple assignments i didnt get back. its called getting a GPA back up so I can transfer to a good university and make something out of myself and avoid being like the rest of alll the fucking pricks and dicks in this world. jesus how could people be so goddamn stupid. and who ever the fuck was the plumber that built this house is a fucking failure. because, the on bathroom, in a huge ass house with hold on let me count
TEN fucking bath rooms! ten of them! 8 with actualy showers/bathtubs, have only one shower that works. I fucking hate this place everyday there has to be something that makes me hate it even more. i just have so much hate in me. find me a shooting range!!
TEN fucking bath rooms! ten of them! 8 with actualy showers/bathtubs, have only one shower that works. I fucking hate this place everyday there has to be something that makes me hate it even more. i just have so much hate in me. find me a shooting range!!
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
rant
I was just about to post a super angry facebook status update. but i couldnt afford to do that twive in less than 24 hours.
i'm angry. at the world. at my T's boyfriend because he's treating her like shit. at the dumbfuck who filled up my home page with the two year old number game. at the cheap shit that's so drunk she can't even think straight and doesn't know how to fucking speak english and still posts in it. just plain fucking angry and i feel if i just shoot someone it will all go away. this post is definitely going to affect my career, my next boss is probably not going to hire me because they'll think i'm to violent. but I fucking can't help it. so if you think im too violent, come tell me so i can punch you in the face.
i'm angry. at the world. at my T's boyfriend because he's treating her like shit. at the dumbfuck who filled up my home page with the two year old number game. at the cheap shit that's so drunk she can't even think straight and doesn't know how to fucking speak english and still posts in it. just plain fucking angry and i feel if i just shoot someone it will all go away. this post is definitely going to affect my career, my next boss is probably not going to hire me because they'll think i'm to violent. but I fucking can't help it. so if you think im too violent, come tell me so i can punch you in the face.
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
Spare some change?
The definition of the word 'change' is so vague in the dictionary.
- make or become different:
So, I thought I'd define it as how I've come to know it. It is an inevitable force of life, and it usually happens once we're comfortable and content with the way things are. But, change isn't always that bad. It just shows me, you, everyone life is going places. Insanity was described as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results, by the genius himself.
Its true, isn't it? We expect things to change without taking action.
And sometimes they do, but you mostly have to work for the change you want, and embrace it. Thats the biggest thing you have to do, is embrace it.
You'll realise, eventually you'll adapt. Just breath in, breath out, and face the world head first, thats the way you were brought into it.
ConfusedGirl.
Friday, 11 November 2011
Feel Bad Inc.
I hate boys.
I tried to force myself into liking him and it didn't work, now i'm stuck, again, with having to let him know. and T, made it worse being all oh I don't want to see him hurt on my ass. think I wanna see him hurt, yes he's nice and sweet and blabla but I'm not feeling anything, besides a shit load of guilt.
fuck me,
CrazyMoroccan.
I tried to force myself into liking him and it didn't work, now i'm stuck, again, with having to let him know. and T, made it worse being all oh I don't want to see him hurt on my ass. think I wanna see him hurt, yes he's nice and sweet and blabla but I'm not feeling anything, besides a shit load of guilt.
fuck me,
CrazyMoroccan.
Friday, 4 November 2011
So Purple hasn't written in her blog in a while, and thinks it might be feeling a little bit neglected.
Well blog, you should be glad because when Purple doesnt write in the blog, it means shes probably busy with life, and probably too preoccupied to delve in her warped up mind. Because when she does she gets lost. Its very easy to lose herself in her mind, its a forest of bidgdkhlfjidghsdfjsjfhbdiugdfkz. That would literally be the best way to describe it, and the best thing is, the chances of that random permutation is very low, considering there are 26 letters on the keyboard, and the above permutation had 30 letters, the possibility of that is 24^30. Or something like that. Additional Maths is a distant memory now.
Something she would never wish she were sitting in, but now desperately needs it. Just a minute of a journey back in time, just so she wouldnt have to begin the process of growing up.
I want to be a child forever.
Well blog, you should be glad because when Purple doesnt write in the blog, it means shes probably busy with life, and probably too preoccupied to delve in her warped up mind. Because when she does she gets lost. Its very easy to lose herself in her mind, its a forest of bidgdkhlfjidghsdfjsjfhbdiugdfkz. That would literally be the best way to describe it, and the best thing is, the chances of that random permutation is very low, considering there are 26 letters on the keyboard, and the above permutation had 30 letters, the possibility of that is 24^30. Or something like that. Additional Maths is a distant memory now.
Something she would never wish she were sitting in, but now desperately needs it. Just a minute of a journey back in time, just so she wouldnt have to begin the process of growing up.
I want to be a child forever.
Tuesday, 25 October 2011
Purple- awake so late again?
- just got home
- sorry
- i also love this man
- i want to marry him
- he's a deep deep musician who writes amazing songs
- and hes got a beard
- but he's married
- sometimes i just want to curl up in a ball
- but not all the time
- i think once or twice is enough
- xD
- but yea you're right
- anyway im going to link you so you can see what im talking about
- 19 minutes ago
- you should embrace them
- OMG OMG OMG
- I LOVE LITTLE MERMAID
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