Response to you, response to me.

''Things get worse, so that there's room to get better''

Whoever said that lied. Whenever things get bad, they stay bad - because you try do something good when you feel like crap. But it isn't a reason to give up, even though sometimes we all want to. Today, I sat this admission test for law, and in it I realised, what the fuck? This is NOT what I want to do, it may make the 'man' happy, but it sure as hell won't make me happy. I mean, I want to be succesful, fuck, I want money, a nice house - and I want to make myself and my family happy. But I dont want to do it in a job I hate.

And then walking home, I saw this dog - and I swear to god it looked at me, and smiled - or maybe I just needed someone to smile at me and it sure as hell wasnt gonna be one of those idiot teens. And it made me realise, thats what I want to do, I want to treat animals. I think they're always grateful to humans, the ones that treat them with dignity. The ones that 'give an arse'. 

But I havent worked hard enough for it. 

I havent worked hard enough for anything. Maybe I'm giving up cos I know this worlds fucked up anyways, it doesnt matter what we do. I never used to be this way, I used to care. Now, I don't. 

I guess thats not a response to you at all, but you're not as fucked as you think. We're all fucked. 

Times just going so fast, soon we'll be looking back thinking 'I should have..'